Love affair.

Time flies, isn't it?

Well, sometimes not so much.

At this moment, I feel like time is going too slowly. And why?

Because my holidays seem to be so far away... but it's not what you're thinking.

I never thought at this point in my Life I would still be this surprised about my feelings and towards whom they are directed.

You know those love stories in the movies where two people have been friends for ages and then one day they find out they are in love with each other? Only in movies, right? Or not so much!

Yes, that's my situation right now. The big question here is does he feel the same?

I think I have been confused for the last year and a half about this, but thought it was just me seeing things out of place. And I was in a relationship at the time, and I really loved my ex back then, so it couldn't be.

Then, I became single, went on a few dates and decided to take a break from dating. Meanwhile, every time I would go back home, there he was. Every single time, he was there for me and that was so important that I started to think that maybe, just maybe those feelings I thought it was just my imagination could be real.

Then, in one of my visits, I met a friend of his and I got a bit uncomfortable about how close they seemed to be and to had so much in common. But, I was still thinking that it couldn't be true, I couldn't be feeling that for him after knowing him for so long and, although we have always been good friends, I could never see us as more than that. And I came back to London.

The thoughts and weird feelings, though, kept me anxious and I decided to go back earlier than I was supposed to.

We did spent our usual alone time together, still I couldn't understand if he had the same feeling, but I did understood I was in love for him.

I didn't had the courage to tell him and, since then, I haven't been able to go back. So, you see, I can only go in September and, even with all the work I have been having, he is always in my mind.

I do want to see if I have a shot, but I am scared that he won't feel the same and our friendship gets affected.

We do talk several times a week and joke about us two together but we have always done that, so my head is very confused.

Anyway, I just needed to get that out of my chest and I believe my friends can't hear me anymore.

And there's still a whole month to go... yeah, I know, I should be a lot more emotionally mature at this age, but when it comes to love and feelings who is it? 

Have a great week!