To L.

"Dear L.,

I have so many things that I want to tell you because you are important to me.

Over all these years, there has always been a piece of me missing.

I've lost count of how many times I have said "I don't care anymore" or "I have given up". And then I try again.

Somehow, I know that you are there for me if I need and that is enough when it comes to other friends. I know they are there, I care about them but I don't feel the need to get back in touch often. And that is not because I don't like them as much. 

You see, the thing is, we have been through a lot together, I shared my deepest thoughts and feelings with you at many important times and you never judge me in any way.

I miss you. A lot. And it's not just when I have a problem, but when I achieve something good, when I have a good news or even silly thoughts or opinions.

I saw that you are going to this spiritual trip somewhere and that triggered me to think that I will try again to regain that unique friendship we used to have.

Maybe now, that we all grew up to be distinct people from a few years ago, we can all be a group again.

I think you wouldn't feel left out this time. I believe we could all see how we belong together apart and that we can take our friendship to the next level - the family we have chose.

Believe me - they all miss you too - there's never a time when we are together that someone doesn't bring your name to the table.

And I hope you miss us too.

We all changed over these years. 

And I think you'd like us, who we are now.

N. is still the only guy (man) in the group and, although he is more mature, he still has some silly jokes that only him could come up with. He is enjoying his job to a certain level and he will never move from our city - too scared of flying or going into a boat, he says.

C. is probably the one who has changed the most. She is back to dancing and that took her to great adventures and experiences. She is very eager to live the Life at its fullest and getting surrounded by positive energies.

S.V. has discovered other passions than fashion and beauty and has started a new project with her brother. She is still trying to figure out some parts of herself and what she wants from the future, but she is getting there.

S.F. has moved to a different city to work and is building her life there. She is still the one who is a bit more pessimist about Life but I guess that gives us a reality check every now and then.

P. is now living in the french territory. She is doing well too. Still the same peaceful girl who accepts whatever life brings and makes the best of it - it has been working pretty well with her.

M. doesn't come out with us that much but she is still one of us. She has a different Life now. Some things didn't go the way she was expecting but she is and has always been a fighter. 

And then you have me. I think I changed a bit, still the same awkward, silly and adventurous girl who wears an armour almost to every one.

In your hashtag you put you walk alone. I say "you don't have to, we are here for you"."